Day 24

Today I am grateful for learning how to let go of my anger.  He was at fault for leaving JQ outside alone.  I wanted him suspended, fired, fined, physically harmed…something.  But, I knew when the supervisor promised to call me back after their meeting about the issue that the best I could hope for was an apology.  Why?  Because it was his first offense.  How punishing should you be when it is someone’s first offense?  Yes, nothing catastrophic happened; but it could have.  He was found safe & alive; but what if he hadn’t?  I’m told to focus not on the fact that things could have turned out for the worst but that they did not.  They didn’t.  I can sue for something like this.  The entire agency would have to pay because they were clearly negligent.  I’d win big!  Then what?  Would it not be enough to have my son safe and sound or would it be enough to teach them a lesson?  This shit should never happen!  But, I don’t do anything.  I take the call, I hear the apology on the other end of the phone, I hear the promise of “never again”, and I hang up hoping that my understand of getting a clean slate or another chance is not going to come bite me in the ass.  I’m grateful, this time, for learning to control my anger and accepting the fact that things did and may very well have been planned to turn out good.